Why Was I Always Interested in Spanking?
Why Was I Always Interested in Spanking?
This is one of those questions I have asked myself for as long as I can remember.
Why spanking?
Why did it capture my attention long before I was old enough to understand relationships, marriage, or any of the things I write about today?
I know for me it was never about sexuality. In fact, I was quite young when I first became interested in the subject. I can remember being a little girl and making up stories with my dolls. Somehow those stories often involved one doll correcting another. It was almost always the boy doll correcting the girl doll. I couldn't have explained why at the time. It was simply something that interested me.
As I grew older, I found myself drawn to stories that included spanking scenes. Whenever I came across one in a book, it grabbed my attention. I remember reading novels like Ragtime and Huckleberry Finn and paying special attention whenever the subject came up.
I even remember looking up the word "spanking" in the dictionary. Not once, but many times. I would read the definition and then read the sample sentence. Looking back, that probably sounds strange, but I was fascinated by it. Not because I wanted to be spanked. Not because I understood it. I was simply curious.
Over the years I have tried to figure out where that curiosity came from.
Was it something in my upbringing?
Was it because Daddy spanked us when we deserved it? He wasn't harsh or unfair. It was simply the form of discipline that existed in our home. I always knew what was expected of me, and if I crossed a line there were consequences.
Or was it something deeper?
I sometimes wonder if there is a genetic component to it. I know that sounds odd, but my sister seems wired very much the same way. Neither of us influenced the other. Yet somehow we both developed a similar fascination with the subject. Maybe there is something about personality, temperament, or how some people are naturally drawn to certain ideas and dynamics.
Another thing I wonder about is whether Daddy ever spanked Mom. I never saw anything that would make me think he did. It was simply one of those questions that crossed my mind. I just wonder because I would love to know if it was passed down like a recessive gene. .
The truth is that after all these years, I still don't have a complete answer. I don't know exactly why spanking has always been a subject that caught my attention while other children were interested in entirely different things.
Maybe some interests are simply part of who we are.
Maybe some questions never get fully answered.
What I do know is that this curiosity has been with me for as long as I can remember.
In fact, it has inspired an idea for a fiction story I may write soon. The premise is simple: while sorting through old family belongings, I stumble across a collection of photographs that seem to reveal a side of my grandparents' marriage that nobody ever talked about. The discovery raises questions about family history, relationships, and whether some things have a way of being passed down through generations in ways we never fully understand.
Who knows? Maybe writing the story will help me explore some of these questions myself.
Which I did and is on the fiction page
Have any of you ever wondered why certain subjects fascinated you from such a young age? Were there interests that seemed to appear long before you understood them? I'd love to hear your thoughts.
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